“I am grateful for the courage to fully feel my feelings and to keep being vulnerable through it all.”
I was writing this morning and that came up.
For most of my life I never let myself be vulnerable. I never truly felt my feelings. I hid them in a busy schedule or new project. I pushed them down because God forbid I be “emotional”, the guys best friend girl isn’t emotional, don’t you know that?
I was always told how strong I was. People would always compliment me on my ability to stay strong, move forward, heal after being knocked down in some really ugly ways over the years. So that’s what I became, strong. I became the strong one. The one who didn’t let things get to her. The one who always had everything under control. The one who smiled anyway. Continue reading “Grateful”
Sometimes you have to be your own motivation.
In those moments when you find yourself slipping and it feels like you’ll never get fully back on track I’ve learned that nothing motivates me more than reminding myself where I’ve been and what I’m capable of.
This picture is from last summer. I had built more muscle than I knew was possible and honestly, I felt uncomfortable as fuck about it. I loved the body and curves I built but it was just unlike the shell I had lived in for most of my life so it seriously took some getting used to. Continue reading “Honoring every piece”
7 years ago I posted the picture on the left as my “goal” physique. I wanted to be strong. I wanted to have curves. I wanted to look that way AND feel healthy.
I had zero idea how to get there.
I would try the regularly suggested methods of eating and all the “fad” ways to get the booty and abs… guess what? None of that worked. And I would go through cycles of consistency, not feel better, not get stronger, and in turn would get discouraged and then give up. Continue reading “Real Change”
I was reading an article this morning about fear… and honestly, fear is something I spend a lot of time paying attention to when it pops up because it has so much to tell us if we’re willing to listen.
So, this morning I decided to extend my morning practice into some meditation coloring. As I was filling in the swirls of the mandala, I let my thoughts flow freely. And after about 10 minutes of that I started to ask myself “What are you so scared of?”
Because I’ve been feeling the presence of fear lately, but it hasn’t been clear as to why or what it was that I’m scared of in my current situation. Continue reading “Overcoming Fear”
Someone just reminded me that it is Friday.
Honestly, other than knowing who’s calls are on which days I typically don’t pay any attention to the what day of the week it is.
In my world, my weekends are pretty similar to any other day. Granted, I don’t do calls on the weekend or take appointments but I’m still creating, still responding to emails and supporting my clients, and still building my brand.
To some of you that might sound terrible… you know to “work on the weekends” but here’s the thing I want you to understand… I’ve built my life this way on purpose. To where every day is amazing. Every day I get to spend my time doing what I love in one way or another. And I’ve designed it to where everything I choose to do each day fits directly into what I’m building. So basically, me living is me “working”. It’s all the same to me.
Spending time alone… strengthening mindset, resetting, and quieting so I can listen.
Visiting with family or friends… fueling my soul, gaining different perspectives, and keeping my heart happy and relationships balanced.
Writing about my life or my experiences… clearing my mind, fueling my soul, and spreading my message in the process.
Driving or flying anywhere… time to think. Clear my mind. Get creative. Record voice messages to myself, my team, my clients. Catch up on audio-books or podcasts.
Getting my hair done… time to catch up with an old friend (fuel for my soul), gain perspective through those conversations and have some time to be disconnected from my phone in the process. Plus the tangible finished product provides a very necessary part of my brand as well.
Continue reading “Friday”