I am happy.
In a totally different way than ever before.
For very different reasons.
In some of the same beautiful ways but more so, in brand new, exciting, mindshattering ways.
And apparently THIS (pictured below) is the face of that happiness. It’s what expression I have instantly made in every photo for quite a while now. When I try to smile with my teeth, which is the norm for me and it looks forced and weird and inauthentic right now. I’m not sure how to explain it but that is obviously not the expression of the type of happiness I’m experiencing right now and I am totally okay with that!
This expression is one of exploration. It is one of adventure. It is one of learning. It is one of deeply experiencing something fucking beautiful with zero idea of how to really put said experiences into words just yet.
This expression is perfect for this phase
Smile and remember to NEVER let other people dim your light by projecting their own insecurities on you.
Just because someone you care about is all dark and twisty inside doesn’t mean that you have to be too. That’s not going to help anything or anyone.
Stand true in who you are and know that not everyone can handle it.
No matter how capable they may appear to be, sometimes you’re just too bright for them and that’s okay… those aren’t your people.
Eyes on the prize.
KEEP SMILING. KEEP SHINING.
So today. I woke up and put my war pants on.
Yes, I have war pants.
I’ve been hiding from life the past few days and kind of sitting in self doubt. But last night, I build a fire, no fire starter log, nothing to help it burn. Just me being stubbornly dedicated to getting this fire started… I went out into the yard and gathered twigs about 6 different times and sat there, feeding this fire until it was strong enough for me to put a log on. Continue reading “War Pants”