Patterns

Patterns

Patterns. They’re a tricky thing…Something we do each time a certain situation presents itself in our lives. Something that is our “normal” reaction. But not like shivering when you’re cold kind of reaction, like drastic, sometimes life altering reactions that we make subconsciously to either shield ourselves from something or make us feel safe again.

Lately, I’ve been experiencing a lot of new things. Well, finding myself in positions I haven’t found myself in many years.

So currently when I’ve found myself standing in these sort of “uncharted territories”, I’ve taken this as an opportunity to look around and see what my natural reaction is (or what I would have done 10 years ago when I was in this spot) and then dissect WHY that is my reaction or where my subconscious naturally takes me. Continue reading “Patterns”

Going Through Some Shit

Going Through Some Shit

Real talk. I’ve been going through some shit lately.

Before you get all “Oh my gosh Jamie, WHAT’S WRONG”; please let me explain, nothing is wrong.

When I say, ‘going through some shit’, yes, I mean some not so easy realizations and decisions, which have led to lots of feelings, some darkness, and a lot of stress.
None of those are negative things though, friends! Continue reading “Going Through Some Shit”

Story Time

Story Time

He cornered me in the shop. Everyone else was going inside to go to bed; the party was over, it was after 2 am. He had barely spoken two words to me the whole night, a man that I used to believe wholeheartedly was mine forever. And he cornered me saying, “I need you to answer these questions.”

I was taken back by this. I remember thinking… REALLY? We’ve been going back and forth about this for 7 years now, and we need to talk about it AGAIN? You still have questions?! Continue reading “Story Time”