“Romance your creativity”. I remember the first time I heard this concept several years ago. I was reading Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert for the first time (yes, I’ve read/listened to that book well over 30 times. If you haven’t read it, I highly recommend you do) and I realized I had been doing that without really knowing it.
I would light a candle, put on the right music, and sit down with a great cup of coffee. The vibe was right and I’d totally get into the zone. I even did this when I was in my 9-5 when I really needed to concentrate in on a project.
Leave it there.
Those pieces that are breaking off.
Those things that are no longer serving you.
Maybe it’s a belief. Maybe it’s a habit. Maybe it’s a story. Maybe it’s a person. Maybe it’s a place. Maybe it’s a pattern. Maybe it’s as small as choosing silence over a response. Continue reading “Leave It There”
I got really used to making no sense to anyone a really long time ago but I would never had fathomed having to stand up and fight… well, SHINE, as strong and as bright as I can to prove that I’m not going anywhere, that I’m confident in the deeply clear messages I’ve received, that it is possible to not only see above the fog but to make unwavering shifts in order to be better equipped for navigating what’s ahead. Shining light on the fact that unconditional, non judgmental love actually does exist.
Because unfortunately, in this world it is so uncommon for someone to actually be committed, to stick to their word, to be to willing to fight/shine because quitting is simply not an option. That when I speak my truth and my position as confidently as I always have when I am as sure of something as I am right now, I get blank stares and reactions of disbelief… from most at least. Continue reading “Unconditional Love”
Sometimes I tell myself it’s silly. That I’m totally ridiculous to be this strong, independent, forward thinking woman and still get flutters in my heart when I think of what might be my happy ending.
Happy ending. Doesn’t that sound silly?
I mean, it might but I have to admit, I believe in it. My soul longs for it. I can feel it in my bones that it is out there.
Don’t get me wrong, I know life is not a fairy tale in the typical sense of the word but I choose to believe that my version of it exists. Continue reading “Romance”
Once upon a time I was the girlfriend of a deployed Marine.
It was him. And me. That’s all that mattered in that, to what now feels like such a brief moment in time. In my heart, I knew he needed me, and I fully intended to be there as much as I possibly could as a support system to him.
It was the first time I made friends with women across the country whom I had never met. It was the first time I reached outside of my inner circle for connection and support. No one else got it. Honestly, I didn’t really even talk to the people “closest to me” about it at all. To this day they don’t really know much about that relationship… how deep it was, how it affected me, how it unraveled… Continue reading “I am an American”
“i know you haven’t made your mind up yet but i would never do you wrong. I’ve known it since the first time that we met, there’s no doubt in my mind where you belong”
Maybe people are right, maybe i am used to getting my way. Maybe Im used to putting in the effort needed, busting my ass for what I want and actually getting it. But not here. Not in this situation. You refuse to let me win. Refuse to give me what I want more than anything else..Even though i truly believe that it is what you want too. It doesn’t make sense at all why being stubborn is more appetitizing to you than everything you know we could be. Continue reading “Damn pandora…”