Daydreaming

Daydreaming

You may have heard me talk about how daydreaming is a large part of my daily ritual. Yep, daydreaming.

That’s the term I enjoy, it’s what feels lovely to me. When I sit in my quiet space in the morning I let my mind wander for a while. Sometimes I look around my room and am just filled with gratitude for this space, I notice the books, the candles, the little pieces of my journey I have strategically placed all around me and it makes my soul smile. Continue reading “Daydreaming”

Stillness

Stillness

“To be calm is the highest achievement of the self.” -Zen proverb

Lately I’ve spent more time in stillness. I’ve learned that on my journey to know myself on a different level, slow has become my preferred place to be.

Even when things are swift or moving quickly, I find myself standing in it all very differently than I have before. Continue reading “Stillness”

Being Vulnerable

Being Vulnerable

Being vulnerable never gets easier, even when it becomes your active way of engaging.

The thing that I find to be most challenging about vulnerability is letting go of the reaction others may have to it.

It can be crushing to be vulnerable, to really put yourself out there with someone only to have them turn away or choose that it’s too much.

But you have to remember two things…
1. You’re not doing this for them. Being vulnerable is a pure act of self love and living in your own truth, no matter what.

2. Someone’s reaction to you has absolutely nothing to do with you and has everything to do with them, their own situation, possibly their own fears, and the filter they choose to see life through.

So, you cannot take it personally.

Instead, you allow yourself to feel whatever feelings come up, honor them, dissect them if needed but then remind yourself how courageous you are and that vulnerability is a super power.

Keep going.
Keep growing.
Those you are meant to be with along the way will cherish the rawness of you, not run from it.

Motivation

Motivation

8 years ago I posted this pic as my motivation. I printed it out and hung it in my house. I tried to create it using what I always thought “working out” meant. None of it worked. I stayed skinny, sometimes toned up my already super thin core but other than that, nothing really changed. I still felt weak and sick most of the time then too.

4 years ago I found myself in constant pain and with zero strength. So I turned to yoga. Using yoga I was able to build a solid core and some lean muscle but more importantly, a mindset around taking control of my body. With the help of the guys at our local S2 I started learning more about being a hard gainer and ways I could combat that. It helped but still, this physique in the photo was no where in sight. Continue reading “Motivation”

Behind The Curtain

Behind The Curtain

We all want to see behind the curtain sometimes, right?

 

Take a look at what’s REALLY happening in someone’s life or behind the scenes, know the real story. Well, that is something I take really freaking seriously so this week, I decided to do just that. 

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Workout Consistency

Workout Consistency

Truth is, I know the right way to stand to look the most flattering in a photo. I know the angles and what works best for my frame. So, when I started taking the daily progress photo for the #75Hard challenge it was a bit off-putting at first.

Like “whoa, that’s not now I look in photos.” Um, actually YES that IS what you look like in photos, without flexing or posing. I can’t wait to post before and afters when this is all said and done but for now, it’s day 7 and I’ve already started to see a difference. Continue reading “Workout Consistency”

75 Hard Challenge

75 Hard Challenge

I’ve contemplated doing this silently for a while. I’ve started it several times and barely made it a week without missing something on the list… but nobody knew so it was okay.

Bullshit.

I knew.

I knew that I missed a mark and started over day after day. At first, I was proud of myself for starting over and not beating myself up about it, but then I realized that was bullshit too. The fact is, I wasn’t committed. Which is I wasn’t following through. So I stopped re-starting but it’s still been on my mind. Like “when am I going to start again?” had been in the back of my thoughts ever since. Continue reading “75 Hard Challenge”

My Family

My Family

While driving home from my overly large family gathering on Christmas Eve I was filled with such joy, such knowing, and such belonging… a very rooted feeling.

I started thinking about our history. About where my gigantic family started and about the amazing humans that really hold it all together.

My Grandmother raised 14 kids. Mainly in the hills of West Virginia in a small coal mining town that you’ve probably never heard of, which is a shame because it is hands down one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen. There’s a reason they say “Almost heaven, West Virginia”. Continue reading “My Family”

Fun Fact!

Fun Fact!

Fun fact… I’ve watched watched every BBC nature documentary over 30 times. I have been watching them for years. As a result I know a very large amount of strange facts about this planet and the creatures, mountains, seas, rivers, plains, sky, etc.

I guess I should have said a fun and equally strange fact about me. And if Sir David Attenborough is the narrator, I’ve watched it probably close to 100. No joke. I love that man. SO much. His mission. His knowledge. All around, he is an incredible human. And his voice. It’s so soothing, at the end of the day it’s always exactly what I need. Continue reading “Fun Fact!”