It was recently brought to my attention that I make all of this look really “easy”. Ya know, this intentional living thing.
Which I was honestly taken aback by because it’s not easy at all, not even a little bit. And I feel like I show all sides of the spectrum but I guess since I show the struggles after I’ve gotten through to the other side that it still looks like I’m handling everything with ease. Now don’t get me wrong, there are times that because I am so damn proactive that things to do appear to be easy and flowy and glamorous but that’s because I put in the work up front. I take the extra time in the moments to handle the things or prepare or set myself and my family up for success. Continue reading “Intentional Living”
I’ve been a little quiet lately, I know but sometimes when life is happening and it’s not just MY story to tell… as things transpire I have to keep it to myself. As I’ve been learning to mesh my life with that of another amazing human and an equally amazing kiddo and navigate it all so everyone is being served and everything is flowing, I’ve lost a little bit of my voice.
When I sit to write and reflect, the writing part hasn’t been happening as often. Simply because my brain needs the reflection and quiet time more now than it ever has before.
Talk about a whirlwind. The past couple of months have been just that. Insanely rewarding and my heart is so full but equally exhausting at the same time. And I miss my voice. I miss my platform and today, today the words started to flow for the first time in a long time and it felt GOOD.
It’s all slowly falling into place so I felt called to give ya’ll a little update and let you know I’m still here. Still building. Still creating. Still manifesting my reality. Still helping my clients. Still active in my groups.
I think maybe without really meaning to I’ve been silently preparing for what feels like a comeback… even though I haven’t fallen, not even a little bit.
Regardless, it’s about to go down… in the most magical and amazing way possible so stay tuned.
Today was full. It was a lot. My brain feels a little mushy right now, to be honest, but I also feel extremely grateful.
I decided to hibernate this week. I decreased my social media use by 90%. I have turned my phone off most of the day each day. I pushed back my client calls and prerecorded my group trainings instead of hosting them live. Continue reading “Surrender”
While watching a show about modern-day ranchers in British Columbia, I became fully engulfed in this conversation where a Native American horse trainer was explaining how humans are like the 4 directions (North, South, East, West), rooted in those 4 directions are the 4 aspects of self. The 4 pieces that make us up as a whole: Emotions, Physical Body, Mind, and Spirit.
And he goes on to explain how the trickiest part is keeping them all balanced. And if one side of the wheel is out, all sides are out and we end up walking around in circles or falling over completely. But when we stand in center of our lives we can find balance and connect with others in the best way.
This is EXACTLY what I spent 2 days teaching at my live event earlier this summer. This is exactly the topic I love speaking about most.
Nothing makes me happier than listening to the stories and teachings of different cultures from so many different walks of life and so many different lifetimes/centuries and seeing how similar so many of them are. Continue reading “Balancing It All”
“Because despite all the IG posts and feel good hashtags, you know you’re a fucking failure.”
That’s a line out of the the latest love letter from my stalker I received recently. This same woman has been creating fake accounts and email addresses for years to try and get to me.
It started years ago when I took a permanent stance as the woman on the arm of a “local celebrity” that she thought was supposed to be hers. From numerous letters in the mail, to texts from ghost numbers, to calls at my old place of employment telling me that she found my dog on the side of the highway, to over 20 fake social media accounts created in order to keep tabs on me, you name it… she’s done it.
When this email came through, I literally laughed out loud. Then instantly moved it into the folder labeled “stalkers” I have in my inbox that holds all of the hate mail I have received over the years. Continue reading “My Stalker”