When you’ve been silently winning battles and totally transforming yourself knowing in your bones that everything is playing out the way it’s supposed to… even in those moments where all you want to do is to have it RIGHT NOW and it’s really hard you can still see so clearly that this is just another piece of what has to transpire in order for you to actually get that thing you want so badly in the first place… you keep the faith. You stay vibing as high as possible. You keep believing that the universe has your back and that things always happen in divine timing.
And then one day you’ll find yourself standing in the middle of what you wanted so badly and you’ll almost be scared to even allow yourself to feel giddy for fear that it might not last or might not be real. Continue reading “Open to Receiving”
The heat kicks on in this house and it’s like you turned on a white noise machine. Chandler hates it because it means he has to turn up the TV to hear his shows, but I actually find it super comforting, especially in the morning before anyone else is awake. It’s like a barrier of sound that muffles everything just a little bit, just enough for me to refocus my thoughts when life gets a little too loud.
And guys, let me tell you life has been really damn loud lately. A lot has been happening that I couldn’t have planned for if I was Merlin himself but as I sit here this morning reflecting back on how life has been transpiring lately and looking to what this week has in store, I can honestly say that through it all, I’ve stayed surprisingly calm. Continue reading “Life Has Been Really Loud Lately”
We love chaos.
Point blank. End of story.
We’ve been taught that running around crazy means you’re busy. Busy means you’re successful. Successful means that you have so much going on that chaos is a given.
Sounds about right, doesn’t it?
Just because that’s what the movies, TV shows, and our parents have taught us over the years doesn’t mean that is ACTUALLY the case.
Honestly, it couldn’t be more false. Continue reading “Chaos”
THE WORK COMES FIRST.
Yes, you have freedom. Yes, you have balance. Yes, you run your own business, Yippee!
But you guys… you don’t get to go enjoy them if you’re NOT DOING THE WORK, not if you want to keep them at least.
The work must come first.
I’m not saying it’s the most important thing… well, maybe I am. Continue reading “The Work Comes First”
8:00 on a Thursday night after the 2nd 12 work day in a row.. the LAST thing I wanted to do was lift.
I don’t normally work out at night.
My trainer was busy so I’m solo.
I am exhausted.
My back is killing me.
I didn’t get enough sleep last night.
I’m out of post work out.
My phones about to die so I can’t listen to music.
I have so much other work to do.
My dogs been alone all day.
A long line of excuses that went through my head in literally 3.2 seconds. Continue reading “Don’t Let Excuses Win”
Body shaming is definitely a hot topic in mass media today and it comes from past programming that’s been embedded in our brain to make us think and act a certain way about body image. We judge other people and are quick to come to conclusions about what we think people need or want or are struggling with.
Unfortunately a lot of people who are talking about body shaming are actually doing just that with their message; shaming.
How so you ask? Continue reading “Confessions of a hard gainer…”
This is how I spent my day…
Sitting fireside soaking up the ambiance of this beautiful fire and getting some major hustle on. Continue reading “Getting Some Major Hustle On”
Once upon a time I was the girlfriend of a deployed Marine.
It was him. And me. That’s all that mattered in that, to what now feels like such a brief moment in time. In my heart, I knew he needed me, and I fully intended to be there as much as I possibly could as a support system to him.
It was the first time I made friends with women across the country whom I had never met. It was the first time I reached outside of my inner circle for connection and support. No one else got it. Honestly, I didn’t really even talk to the people “closest to me” about it at all. To this day they don’t really know much about that relationship… how deep it was, how it affected me, how it unraveled… Continue reading “I am an American”
Sometimes I rebel against my own body.
In order to not feel terrible constantly and not fall down (no like seriously, i’ll pass out), I have to eat a very specific way every day. It consists of high calorie, high protein, high complex carb meals.. At least 7 or 8 times a day… but all clean, healthy choices. Little or no sugar. Little or no processed foods.
It’s been a long long journey of trial and error to find what actually works for me. Not just what I have to eat so I don’t feel like complete shit, but how often I have to eat and how much sleep I have to get to function normally. Continue reading “Get Back on Track”