*Originally posted September 30th, 2019
My beautiful friend Samantha called me yesterday morning while I was in the middle of a battle with my depression, I wanted to crawl back into bed and hide from the world. I was talking myself through every step.
I ate breakfast and took care of Bonnie. Win.
I showered. Win.
Sat there for like 20 minutes in a towel contemplating getting back under the covers.
Got up and dried my hair instead. Win.
Then I started pacing… I was so mad that I was in this fog. Annoyed to have to deal with it.
Feeling defeated at the thought of having to pull myself out of it… AGAIN. Debating going backwards on some relationship behaviors I’ve been working months to overcome because, well it felt like a quick fix.
Then Samantha called.
I had called her a few hours ago as I felt this all weighing down on me and left a message “it’s heavy today, call me when you can”.
A message that was hard to send but I’ve learned to reach out when I’m drowning. I don’t always listen to that advice but today I did.
Luckily had yet to put my makeup on because I answered the phone feeling okay but the moment she asked what was going on? Queue tears. Continue reading “Battling Depression”
“You can have it all”. Really? Can you really though?
It’s funny, I’ve spent so much time intentionally building this world I live in but still question “Can I really have all of this?”
I mean, I look around at this beautiful home we’ve created, it’s so filled with love, I’m so filled with love and I think about having a strong, healthy body, beautiful skin, being in control of my thoughts and reactions, expanding my mind daily, writing brilliant pieces every day, having amazing relationships with my friends and family, kissing my soul mate before I go to bed every night… AND amazing mermaid hair… AND driving the vehicle of my dreams every day… AND on top of all of that, I get to make money by living on my terms every day and it doesn’t feel hard… WHO THE FUCK DO I THINK I AM TO HAVE ALL OF THIS?
And to want even MORE? Continue reading “You Can Have It All”
I’m not sure if it’s because we’ve recently had several serious scares with my mom’s health or if I’m attracting more of these kinds of conversations but lately I’ve noticed something among so many people I’ve encountered and it’s quite honestly pissing me off.
Here’s why; Your health isn’t something to fuck around with.
You only get one body. That’s it. There’s no redo. There’s no turning it in for a new model. And while yes, this country especially has been feeding the masses full of false information about health for decades, it’s the age of information and you have all the data you need to turn your health around at your fingertips.
Yes, doctors can be involved, and they can guide you, BUT YOU HAVE CONTROL AS WELL. You have control over the most important parts. Continue reading “PROJECT MANAGING YOUR HEALTH”
“The opinion of 10,000 men is of no value if none of them know anything about the subject.” – Marcus Aurelius
A friend of mine posted this quote yesterday and when I was reminded of it I smiled from ear to ear.
I’ve seen this quote before but it couldn’t have reached me at a better time last night.
I was feeling heavy from some conversations that transpired throughout the day.
I had opened my Facebook and started typing several times with the desire to basically tell several people to Fuck off and get out of my space but then I was reminded that anger and hate is not something I chose to contribute to this planet of ours. Continue reading “Instead of Being Angry…”
“HOW MUCH MORE MONEY I COULD HAVE MADE IN MY ALREADY SUCCESSFUL BUSINESS IF I HAD KNOWN HOW MUCH MORE MONEY CREATING PEACE IN YOUR LIFE GENERATES?”
I first hired Jamie almost a year ago. I talk often about the shifts she’s helped me make in my business, because those are the most tangible and easiest to explain.
I had this business idea when I first spoke with her that I had no idea how to execute… we hit my “long term, where I see this business at its peak” goal so long ago, that my original “long term” goal feels like a joke at this point. I’m hitting in a month close to what I used to hit in a year.
And believe it or not, business is the LEAST of what Jamie has helped me improve in my life. I don’t say that for drama – it’s the actual truth.
I had been watching Jamie’s content for over a year before I hired her. She had me intrigued with all this mindset stuff she talked about. I believed in all of it, but I believed it for other people. I didn’t believe I’d ever be capable of operating my life in that way, but it was cool to read her stories. Continue reading “How Finding Peace Made Her More Money”
It’s okay to let someone take care of you sometimes.
Seems almost silly to even say this out loud, but to all of you crazy independent heretics who are right there with me working daily to take over the world, it’s okay to let someone take care of you now and then.
For my entire adult life I’ve always worked hard to NEVER need anyone. Part of my insane proactive nature is to be super prepared and never need anyone to help me with anything…
This is something I’ve completely flipped and adjusted professionally… Hiring a staff and letting them be there for me is a must and something I’ve always been okay with. BUT in my personal life… Not so much.
I suck at letting anyone see me vulnerable.
Continue reading “Being Vulnerable”
“I have some news”.
I started a few conversations that way recently and then immediately realized that statement made it sound like I was about to tell someone I was pregnant…
Which I am not so I quickly had to make that point clear which made it a little awkward for a minute but in true Jamie fashion, I like to keep things interesting. Maybe “I made a decision” was a better approach to the news.
No, that sounded weird too. And that’s when I realized that I was spending entirely too much time worrying about telling people something that was MINE. My news. My decision. My excitement. My next step. My latest adventure. Why was I so worried about how to approach this conversation with other people? The words didn’t matter. Continue reading “I Have Some News”