Labyrinth

Labyrinth

Today I walked a Labyrinth.

Before today I didn’t even know what that meant. Or what it was.

But I can tell you that I was divinely guided to find this space on this day.

Here’s why; I’ve been having quite the rollercoaster ride lately. Lots of realizations, changes, shifts, and all the feelings. But I guess that the deeper you go, the more you dig, the more “woke” you get, sometimes that’s just a normal part of your day to day.

So, this morning I just felt uneasy, for no real reason why. I did my normal routine, got grounded, pulled cards, made the bed, sat with Bonnie, journaled with my coffee, read my book, listened to my drums, but still couldn’t kick it.

Somewhere around 11am I stopped for a minute and realized that I could barely even remember any of the things I had done that day, without really stopping to think hard about it.

It was like I was in a trance.
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Self-Awareness

Self-Awareness

Listen, some days are going to be… trying to say the least.

Some days you’ll have a constant conversation with yourself in your head about what is a story and what is the truth.

Because your mind will try to play tricks on you. It will bring up any old past shit that it thinks “might” explain a situation in order to try and “protect” you but it’s up to you to be self-aware enough to look that shit in the face and decipher if its fact or fiction.

Sometimes those subconscious things really are legit and a great device to point out things that need your attention… But sometimes they are totally off. In fact, a lot of times they are based on things that have nothing at all to do with the current situation and are 100% a fabricated story inside of your head.

So what happens if you believe that story? Continue reading “Self-Awareness”

My Stalker

My Stalker

“Because despite all the IG posts and feel good hashtags, you know you’re a fucking failure.”

That’s a line out of the the latest love letter from my stalker I received recently. This same woman has been creating fake accounts and email addresses for years to try and get to me.

It started years ago when I took a permanent stance as the woman on the arm of a “local celebrity” that she thought was supposed to be hers. From numerous letters in the mail, to texts from ghost numbers, to calls at my old place of employment telling me that she found my dog on the side of the highway, to over 20 fake social media accounts created in order to keep tabs on me, you name it… she’s done it.

When this email came through, I literally laughed out loud. Then instantly moved it into the folder labeled “stalkers” I have in my inbox that holds all of the hate mail I have received over the years. Continue reading “My Stalker”

WHO IS YOUR WORST CRITIC?

WHO IS YOUR WORST CRITIC?

You are your worst critic.

You can work to flip it but it will still creep in. You just can’t let it stop you.

We are all hard on ourselves…it happens… And if you have an entrepreneurial brain, you know it happens daily. We are wired to never be satisfied with what we’ve accomplished. We never feel like it’s “enough”. Being hard on yourself is a double-edged sword. On one hand, it keeps you motivated to prove yourself and everyone around you wrong, but on the other hand, it can also be a huge weight on your shoulders that drags you down (*if you let it).

How do you keep from getting discouraged?
How do you keep from being weighed down?
How do you stay positive and moving forward?
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Strong Woman

Strong Woman

Everyone wants a strong woman until they see how strong she is.
She will not be broken.
She doesn’t hesitate when it comes to protecting her peace and does so by any means.
You see, everyone wants a strong woman until they see she’s stronger than they thought.
Her love cannot be bought. 
She doesn’t mean to intimidate, but she remembers what life was like when she was weak.
She decided that life wasn’t for her anymore.
Instead of waiting for a hero, she saved herself. – R.solo

The strength and security is intimidating to some, sure.

But for those who are meant to stay, those worthy of her time and space, those people will look past the strength and see the softness too. Continue reading “Strong Woman”

What If You Just Did It Anyway?

What If You Just Did It Anyway?

So many people ask me how I get motivated to write, or go to the gym, or do my work even though I really don’t have anyone to answer to but myself.

And the answer is, I’m not always motivated.

I don’t always want to.

It’s not always convenient or exciting.

But I do it anyway.

Honestly, I don’t even allow myself another option anymore. Continue reading “What If You Just Did It Anyway?”