Sustainable Health

Sustainable Health

This is NOT what I look like right now.

Before you say anything, let me point out that I am in no way, shape, or form complaining about it. I am committed to sharing what is really happening with you, so that’s what this is.

In the photo here, I remember feeling so uncomfortable in my own skin that I didn’t even notice how amazing that core definition was. Like whoa, that’s incredible.

I was proud, don’t get me wrong, but it was because for the first time in my life I was physically strong and felt better than I had in… Well… Ever. Continue reading “Sustainable Health”

Your Lens

Your Lens

Sometimes even when the reality isn’t really all that rosy we continue, out of pure subconscious comfortability to only see things through our trusty rose-colored glasses. 

 

The truth is, most of us were given those glasses at a really young age and they’ve become something we’ve carried in our pockets ever since. We put them on every time our experience was the only one that was comfortable to see and over the years they’ve become something that we depend on, unbeknownst to us.

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Intentional Shopping

Intentional Shopping

Are you one of those people who only gets certain things for certain stores?

Because I am.

I frequent Trader Joe’s and Aldi more than anything BUT neither of them have the oats I like so I go to Dierbergs for those and for fage yogurt because I’m obsessed. AND Annie’s Burritos because also obsessed. (OH, and the local produce stand because they’re unbeatable on produce. Plus it’s the cutest place ever and makes me so happy!) Then there are items that I refuse to purchase anywhere besides Sam’s Club because the price point is just too good to pass up. I mean, I can get a massive bag of coffee beans at Sam’s for roughly the same price as a small, off brand bag at a regular grocery store and I just am not about that life.

I think we all have our things. Things we like from certain places for certain reasons. Continue reading “Intentional Shopping”

My Skin

My Skin

My skin. What I at one time proclaimed to be my worst enemy is now something I’m really working on loving.

It sounds like something easy to do, a switch you can flip but it’s proven to be a lot more challenging than I expected.

You see, I realized that I was being incredibly unfair to myself. The voice in my head had a very strong opinion that there was some thing wrong with my skin and it had to be fixed. Continue reading “My Skin”

One Of The Best Gifts I’ve Been Given

One Of The Best Gifts I’ve Been Given

Permission to exhale in the most non-elegant or “abnormal” fashion when breathing into my body has proven to be one of the best gifts I’ve been given.

You listen to guided meditations and watch your yoga instructor or favorite guide and they look so exquisite with slow controlled exhales, that’s all you are taught to do. That’s what you try to mimic in your own practice, never knowing that there might actually be another way, a more helpful way to release.

I think there is a definite time and place for slow controlled exhales, I still use that technique all the time, several times a day in order to reset my thinking, lessen my pain, or calm my nerves or feelings or emotions. Continue reading “One Of The Best Gifts I’ve Been Given”

I AM A PRIORITY

I AM A PRIORITY

Every Monday afternoon I have a video chat with my Therapist.

Once a month I meet with my Psychiatrist.

I also work with an Intuitive Coach and other healers regularly for different things.

My mental health matters to me.
My emotional health is a priority.
I am a priority. Continue reading “I AM A PRIORITY”

Put The Sword Down

Put The Sword Down

PUT THE SWORD DOWN.

Just because you know how to fight doesn’t mean you have to.

I’ve spent a lot of my life “fighting” to get to the next thing. Fighting to get recognition. Fighting to figure out what is wrong with my body. Fighting to get respect. Fighting to be seen. Fighting to be heard. Fighting to move out of and past old patterns and situations.

About a year ago, I stopped fighting.

I actually thought I had quit battling a long time before that point but in a moment where things had quite literally gone up in flames around me, I was reminded by a friend, “It’s only a battle if you choose for it to be” and in that moment I realized that while yes, I had stopped battling in most capacities, I still was in ways that I didn’t even notice.

So, I put the sword down and started to take another approach. After all, fighting or battling every day is fucking exhausting. Just saying those words brings my energy and vibe down several notches.

Here’s the thing, just because you know how to wield that sword and battle every demon or warrior that comes your way doesn’t mean you HAVE to. It doesn’t mean that has to be what defines you. It doesn’t mean you have to be in that state or operate with that as your desired position or stance to take.

Do you know where true power comes from?
It comes from KNOWING you can fight and then choosing not to because you can SEE past the moment and see the big picture where choosing not to fight is actually what accelerates everything.
It comes from choosing to stand within your own power and take the path of acceptance and learning to work WITH what’s happening, not against it. Continue reading “Put The Sword Down”

Motivation

Motivation

8 years ago I posted this pic as my motivation. I printed it out and hung it in my house. I tried to create it using what I always thought “working out” meant. None of it worked. I stayed skinny, sometimes toned up my already super thin core but other than that, nothing really changed. I still felt weak and sick most of the time then too.

4 years ago I found myself in constant pain and with zero strength. So I turned to yoga. Using yoga I was able to build a solid core and some lean muscle but more importantly, a mindset around taking control of my body. With the help of the guys at our local S2 I started learning more about being a hard gainer and ways I could combat that. It helped but still, this physique in the photo was no where in sight. Continue reading “Motivation”

Workout Consistency

Workout Consistency

Truth is, I know the right way to stand to look the most flattering in a photo. I know the angles and what works best for my frame. So, when I started taking the daily progress photo for the #75Hard challenge it was a bit off-putting at first.

Like “whoa, that’s not now I look in photos.” Um, actually YES that IS what you look like in photos, without flexing or posing. I can’t wait to post before and afters when this is all said and done but for now, it’s day 7 and I’ve already started to see a difference. Continue reading “Workout Consistency”

75 Hard Challenge

75 Hard Challenge

I’ve contemplated doing this silently for a while. I’ve started it several times and barely made it a week without missing something on the list… but nobody knew so it was okay.

Bullshit.

I knew.

I knew that I missed a mark and started over day after day. At first, I was proud of myself for starting over and not beating myself up about it, but then I realized that was bullshit too. The fact is, I wasn’t committed. Which is I wasn’t following through. So I stopped re-starting but it’s still been on my mind. Like “when am I going to start again?” had been in the back of my thoughts ever since. Continue reading “75 Hard Challenge”