What took so long? (Podcast story…)

What took so long? (Podcast story…)

Hey friend! 

 

About a year ago I started thinking about starting a podcast. I had been told for a while that it was the next step to get my message out there and my audience was consistently asking for it, so why wasn’t I making it happen? 

 

I did the research. I found out the best path and places to publish. I listened to a lot of other examples and pulled things that I liked and made notes of what was important to me as a listener. 

 

I had an idea. I had the rules I wanted to work by. But I still continued to sit on it for a quite a while. Why? 

 

Partially because it wasn’t the right time in my life. Things were moving, hell… I was moving x2 in less than 6 months. The other side of it was I wasn’t ready to go all in.  Continue reading “What took so long? (Podcast story…)”

Security

Security

Security. For a lot of my life it was something I felt I desperately wanted someone else to provide but was always something I was left without every time.

So I shifted. I created patterns and habits to prevent myself from feeling that disappointment or fear. I built walls and towers to stay just far enough away that people didn’t get too close.

I would call before they had the chance to not choose me. I would make the date before anyone had to opportunity to forget or not make it a priority. I would “check in” to try and feel like I was helping but what I was really doing was fulfilling something within myself that needed to feel wanted. A desire that given the previously described habits, I never actually let anyone show up and fulfill for me in the first place. Continue reading “Security”

Asking For Help

Asking For Help

I’ve never been really good at asking for help. Even when I’m paying a Coach, it’s not been unheard of for them to have to remind me to reach out when I need an ear.

Sometimes I’m really great at it and sometimes I’m not. It’s something I have to remind myself that it’s okay to do. Because you see, at a young age when I found myself in certain situations I just started handling them myself, keeping it all inside, and manning up like a good little soldier but as I’ve grown and expanded I’ve learned that is not at all how I want to operate. It doesn’t allow me to have the life, freedom, and feelings that I want.

So, I started actively working on that a few years ago and in the process I built up a pretty cool circle of support, people outside of my normal “friends circle”. People who know more than me or had more experience, different experiences or expertise, people who could offer me a non judgmental ear and someone to share triumphs, weaknesses, and all of the in-betweens with. But over the last few months I slowly started to revert back, back to not asking, not confiding in my inner circle and instead I was handling it all in my own head, in my own journal, and unfortunately projecting a lot of it at my partner because well, he was only my support system here. Continue reading “Asking For Help”

Be The Change

Be The Change

Sometimes I wonder if you’ve ever done to her what you did to me.

When the doors are shut and there’s no one around and you have no one else to take your anger out on. Do you turn to her like you did to me?

Then I think, if you haven’t…when will you?

I mean, it’s only a matter of time isn’t it? Continue reading “Be The Change”

Top Lessons I Learned in 2017

Top Lessons I Learned in 2017

For those of you who have been following me for a while… You know that I’m constantly doing things. I made the commitment a couple years ago to dive head first into this entrepreneurial world. It’s been enlightening. It’s been scary. It’s been the textbook definition of a roller coaster ride. I am so grateful in many ways, and I’m so grateful for all of you. You’ve watched me continue to expand this journey. It just means the freaking world to me. It’s honestly an honor to have you in my space, and in my world.

There’s a lot of lessons from 2017… I’m a firm believer that if you’re not feeling uncomfortable, and making mistakes, and learning lessons then you’re not growing. That means you’re standing still. That’s not a good place to be, right? At least not for me. I’ll go crazy.
Continue reading “Top Lessons I Learned in 2017”

You’ll Wish You Had Started Today

You’ll Wish You Had Started Today

Recently I was journaling and reflecting on how a year ago I started a layer. And a year before that I started a different layer. And the year before that… etc.

FOUR YEARS AGO I STARTED.

Four years ago, while sitting on an airplane with a crushed hand, on the way home from a totally VIP rockstar trip to Vegas, I sat there with a pad of paper and an idea. Continue reading “You’ll Wish You Had Started Today”

Open Your Eyes

Open Your Eyes

Sometimes our eyes are opened for us.
Sometimes we’re put into a situation, unexpectedly that changes our perspective and shifts our focus for a moment.
It reminds us of something we wanted, or loved or felt.
Maybe it’s something we pushed down, something we swept under the rug and convinced ourselves we didn’t need at all…simply because it was easier to tell ourselves the story that we didn’t need it instead of waking up every day feeling a void.
And we’re really good story tellers when we need to be (well, at least I am). So, we don’t even realize that we’re missing it in the first place. Continue reading “Open Your Eyes”