Haunted

Haunted

Originally posted on May 23rd, 2019…

Lately, sometimes, it literally feels like I’m being haunted.

Haunted by the things that happened, haunted by the promises I believed, the future that I so clearly saw. Haunted by the person you once were, the person who surely no longer exists but at one time was the realest soul I’ve ever encountered in this lifetime. Continue reading “Haunted”

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Falling In Love and Being In Love

Falling In Love and Being In Love

There is a difference between falling in love and BEING in love.

Falling in love is easy. People do it all the time. Sure, it can be scary sometimes but it’s not a hard thing to do.

But being in love is a totally different animal. I don’t mean the difference between having loving feelings for someone and “being in love”. I’m talking about the day in day out activity of being IN love. Choosing it consciously every day. Working at it. Talking about what you like and don’t like. Listening. Forgiving. Understanding. Standing still. Going crazy. Climbing high. Diving deep. Building empires. Taking down walls. Supporting. Encouraging. Compassion. Honestly. Continue reading “Falling In Love and Being In Love”

You Are Not An Island

You Are Not An Island

You are not an island.

Feeling that way is a choice. A choice that is ultimately yours to make but in the grand scheme of things isn’t going to get you anywhere… besides digging yourself deeper into your own hole.

Open your eyes, I bet there is someone standing nearby who genuinely cares in an unbiased way. Let them see you. Let them come stand next to you. They aren’t there to save you. They aren’t there to judge or have any personal agenda at all actually. In fact, they are probably the one who is not saying much at all right now, just standing there holding space even when you can can’t understand how or why they would even still be there in the first place. Continue reading “You Are Not An Island”

Surrender

Surrender

SURRENDER.
It’s something that was brought to my attention about a year ago. Let go of the “how”. Quit constantly looking for the thing that you’re looking for and instead focus inward, have faith that the universe has your back and be open to receive.

Easy peasy right? Wrong.

It’s been one of the most challenging and multi-layered lessons I’ve learned yet. (And it seems to be the gift that keeps on giving…)

The way it started with me was focusing on one thing I had been wanting to manifest at the time (a man!) and focusing on doing the work, making space for him, visualizing him and our love but then going about my day and not focusing on where he might be, when he might show up, and how it was all going to go down. I struggled with this for a while but when I finally stopped forcing it, he showed up. Like out of nowhere, in a pool with the bluest eye balls I’d ever seen, a voice that changed my life forever, and a soul that mine instantly recognized. A lot of which perfectly matched what I had been wanting to manifest… all of which did not in any way shape or form appear or happen in the way I could have ever imagined that it would. Continue reading “Surrender”

Are You Existing? Or Are You Living?

Are You Existing? Or Are You Living?

“Stop existing and Start living”.

I just saw this and it stopped me dead in my tracks. Think about that for a minute…

Are you existing? Or Are you living?

EXISTING would probably go something like this: dreading waking up each morning, rushing through your morning to go to a job or into a task you’re not super crazy about, driving to that place and not even remembering the drive at all and not looking forward to all you HAVE to do today. Sometimes not wanting to get out of bed at all. Maybe not feeling super thrilled about the clothes you just threw on during that rushed morning so you don’t particularly feel super awesome. Avoiding conversations. Eating whatever is available at the time or forgetting to eat at all. Looking forward to ‘quitting time’. Not feeling excited about anything you’re doing all day. You’re just kind of “going through the motions”… or something along those lines. Continue reading “Are You Existing? Or Are You Living?”

Unconditional Love

Unconditional Love

I got really used to making no sense to anyone a really long time ago but I would never had fathomed having to stand up and fight… well, SHINE, as strong and as bright as I can to prove that I’m not going anywhere, that I’m confident in the deeply clear messages I’ve received, that it is possible to not only see above the fog but to make unwavering shifts in order to be better equipped for navigating what’s ahead. Shining light on the fact that unconditional, non judgmental love actually does exist.

Because unfortunately, in this world it is so uncommon for someone to actually be committed, to stick to their word, to be to willing to fight/shine because quitting is simply not an option. That when I speak my truth and my position as confidently as I always have when I am as sure of something as I am right now, I get blank stares and reactions of disbelief… from most at least. Continue reading “Unconditional Love”

It’s Been Four Years

It’s Been Four Years

It’s been four years since I followed that voice inside of me and left the body shop.

I walked away from something I loved but something that had taken over my life in a way that was so unhealthy and filled it with toxicity that I couldn’t see straight.

I will never forget the moment when he said “I can’t come back from this, can I?” And without even thinking I simply said no and walked out of the office.

It was terrifying. I had no idea what I was going to do or where I was going to go but I knew that the voice inside of me clearly, so so so clearly, told me it was time to go.

I didn’t know what was in store for me but I had one hell of a resume, a ton of skills, and this little side business I had started about a year previous called Posh Promotions… that and a really big dream to create a life I never really knew was possible but I knew I had to try. Continue reading “It’s Been Four Years”