Rosary

Rosary

I prayed the rosary today for the first time in 10 years.

Yep, the entire thing, all 5 decades. The joyful mysteries. On my Grandma’s rosary that she prayed with every night, using the guide book she used. Those items have been sitting in my night stand drawer since she died… each place I’ve lived since she passed, I moved then with me in my night stand. Today, I felt called to use them.

And before that I was writing my gratitude in a journal in order to fully raise my vibration. Continue reading “Rosary”

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Unconditional Love

Unconditional Love

I got really used to making no sense to anyone a really long time ago but I would never had fathomed having to stand up and fight… well, SHINE, as strong and as bright as I can to prove that I’m not going anywhere, that I’m confident in the deeply clear messages I’ve received, that it is possible to not only see above the fog but to make unwavering shifts in order to be better equipped for navigating what’s ahead. Shining light on the fact that unconditional, non judgmental love actually does exist.

Because unfortunately, in this world it is so uncommon for someone to actually be committed, to stick to their word, to be to willing to fight/shine because quitting is simply not an option. That when I speak my truth and my position as confidently as I always have when I am as sure of something as I am right now, I get blank stares and reactions of disbelief… from most at least. Continue reading “Unconditional Love”

It’s Been Four Years

It’s Been Four Years

It’s been four years since I followed that voice inside of me and left the body shop.

I walked away from something I loved but something that had taken over my life in a way that was so unhealthy and filled it with toxicity that I couldn’t see straight.

I will never forget the moment when he said “I can’t come back from this, can I?” And without even thinking I simply said no and walked out of the office.

It was terrifying. I had no idea what I was going to do or where I was going to go but I knew that the voice inside of me clearly, so so so clearly, told me it was time to go.

I didn’t know what was in store for me but I had one hell of a resume, a ton of skills, and this little side business I had started about a year previous called Posh Promotions… that and a really big dream to create a life I never really knew was possible but I knew I had to try. Continue reading “It’s Been Four Years”

Asking For Help

Asking For Help

I’ve never been really good at asking for help. Even when I’m paying a Coach, it’s not been unheard of for them to have to remind me to reach out when I need an ear.

Sometimes I’m really great at it and sometimes I’m not. It’s something I have to remind myself that it’s okay to do. Because you see, at a young age when I found myself in certain situations I just started handling them myself, keeping it all inside, and manning up like a good little soldier but as I’ve grown and expanded I’ve learned that is not at all how I want to operate. It doesn’t allow me to have the life, freedom, and feelings that I want.

So, I started actively working on that a few years ago and in the process I built up a pretty cool circle of support, people outside of my normal “friends circle”. People who know more than me or had more experience, different experiences or expertise, people who could offer me a non judgmental ear and someone to share triumphs, weaknesses, and all of the in-betweens with. But over the last few months I slowly started to revert back, back to not asking, not confiding in my inner circle and instead I was handling it all in my own head, in my own journal, and unfortunately projecting a lot of it at my partner because well, he was only my support system here. Continue reading “Asking For Help”

Intentional Living

Intentional Living

It was recently brought to my attention that I make all of this look really “easy”. Ya know, this intentional living thing.

Which I was honestly taken aback by because it’s not easy at all, not even a little bit. And I feel like I show all sides of the spectrum but I guess since I show the struggles after I’ve gotten through to the other side that it still looks like I’m handling everything with ease. Now don’t get me wrong, there are times that because I am so damn proactive that things to do appear to be easy and flowy and glamorous but that’s because I put in the work up front. I take the extra time in the moments to handle the things or prepare or set myself and my family up for success. Continue reading “Intentional Living”

Always Believed In Love

Always Believed In Love

I’ve always believed in love. I’ve always loved with everything I’ve got and even when I was in a bad situation or was single, I was always surrounding myself with as much love as possible. It wasn’t always easy but at the end of the day, it was always something I could count on.

Basically what I’m saying is that love has always been super present in my world and for that, I’m extremely grateful because I believe it makes all the difference in the core part of how you show up every day.

I owe that to my Mama. She is and always has been a massive advocate for the fact that at the end of the day, love wins. Her and my Dad are walking talking real-life examples that love truly can and does conquer all… IF you choose to allow it to guide you and be a part of who you are. And for that, I’m extremely grateful because no matter how terrible a situation has gotten in my life, how wrong I was done, how hateful someone was towards me, at the end of the day that love flame inside of me never went out. It always lit the way. It always kept me warm. It kept me moving forward. Continue reading “Always Believed In Love”

Real Change

Real Change

7 years ago I posted the picture on the left as my “goal” physique. I wanted to be strong. I wanted to have curves. I wanted to look that way AND feel healthy.

I had zero idea how to get there.

I would try the regularly suggested methods of eating and all the “fad” ways to get the booty and abs… guess what? None of that worked. And I would go through cycles of consistency, not feel better, not get stronger, and in turn would get discouraged and then give up. Continue reading “Real Change”