I AM A PRIORITY

I AM A PRIORITY

Every Monday afternoon I have a video chat with my Therapist.

Once a month I meet with my Psychiatrist.

I also work with an Intuitive Coach and other healers regularly for different things.

My mental health matters to me.
My emotional health is a priority.
I am a priority. Continue reading “I AM A PRIORITY”

Put The Sword Down

Put The Sword Down

PUT THE SWORD DOWN.

Just because you know how to fight doesn’t mean you have to.

I’ve spent a lot of my life “fighting” to get to the next thing. Fighting to get recognition. Fighting to figure out what is wrong with my body. Fighting to get respect. Fighting to be seen. Fighting to be heard. Fighting to move out of and past old patterns and situations.

About a year ago, I stopped fighting.

I actually thought I had quit battling a long time before that point but in a moment where things had quite literally gone up in flames around me, I was reminded by a friend, “It’s only a battle if you choose for it to be” and in that moment I realized that while yes, I had stopped battling in most capacities, I still was in ways that I didn’t even notice.

So, I put the sword down and started to take another approach. After all, fighting or battling every day is fucking exhausting. Just saying those words brings my energy and vibe down several notches.

Here’s the thing, just because you know how to wield that sword and battle every demon or warrior that comes your way doesn’t mean you HAVE to. It doesn’t mean that has to be what defines you. It doesn’t mean you have to be in that state or operate with that as your desired position or stance to take.

Do you know where true power comes from?
It comes from KNOWING you can fight and then choosing not to because you can SEE past the moment and see the big picture where choosing not to fight is actually what accelerates everything.
It comes from choosing to stand within your own power and take the path of acceptance and learning to work WITH what’s happening, not against it. Continue reading “Put The Sword Down”

Behind The Curtain

Behind The Curtain

We all want to see behind the curtain sometimes, right?

 

Take a look at what’s REALLY happening in someone’s life or behind the scenes, know the real story. Well, that is something I take really freaking seriously so this week, I decided to do just that. 

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2019 Lessons

2019 Lessons

Last year taught me that everything can change in a short period of time.

The day before 2019 started, I was unloading a truck of my stuff in a new state, into a new home, with a new family. Something that I always felt was way bigger than me, something I almost didn’t really have a say in deciding, I was just drawn to it in the most divine way… Continue reading “2019 Lessons”

My Family

My Family

While driving home from my overly large family gathering on Christmas Eve I was filled with such joy, such knowing, and such belonging… a very rooted feeling.

I started thinking about our history. About where my gigantic family started and about the amazing humans that really hold it all together.

My Grandmother raised 14 kids. Mainly in the hills of West Virginia in a small coal mining town that you’ve probably never heard of, which is a shame because it is hands down one of the most beautiful places I have ever seen. There’s a reason they say “Almost heaven, West Virginia”. Continue reading “My Family”

Fun Fact!

Fun Fact!

Fun fact… I’ve watched watched every BBC nature documentary over 30 times. I have been watching them for years. As a result I know a very large amount of strange facts about this planet and the creatures, mountains, seas, rivers, plains, sky, etc.

I guess I should have said a fun and equally strange fact about me. And if Sir David Attenborough is the narrator, I’ve watched it probably close to 100. No joke. I love that man. SO much. His mission. His knowledge. All around, he is an incredible human. And his voice. It’s so soothing, at the end of the day it’s always exactly what I need. Continue reading “Fun Fact!”

These Women Are Everywhere

These Women Are Everywhere

“These women are everywhere. They are our neighbors, our friends, our sisters, our co-workers, our cousins. They have no use for our advice or opinions. Their wombs are their own. Let’s respect that.”

If I had a dollar for every time I have been given pity or ignorance for not having kids, I could buy you each a car.

For many years I wasn’t sure if I wanted to have a child. But of course “you’d be a great mom” and “kids create happiness nothing else can” and “you’ll never be fulfilled if you’re not a mom” and “what are you waiting for?” have always been questions and statements pounded down on me… since I was 20 years old.

For years I allowed myself to explore if it was something I wanted or needed. For years I chose adoption as an option because I’m fairly certain my body and its medical condition wouldn’t allow me to grow and birth a child. And honestly, I’ve just never had the desire to be pregnant. This fact in itself has led to more judgement and awkward, hurtful conversations than I care to revisit but it’s the truth. Continue reading “These Women Are Everywhere”

Finding Peace

Finding Peace

One of the hardest things to find peace with is knowing that someone you love is passing judgement on you based off false information or a version of you that you’ve evolved past years and years ago.

I seem to find this most with families, extended family to be exact. As much as I see this happen in my clients personal experiences, I see it happen in my own as well.

And it’s one of the saddest things and hardest to digest.

So many grudges held for so long, and for reasons most can’t even remember in the first place. Hard feelings based on assumptions or rumors or one comment that happened in 1995. Continue reading “Finding Peace”

My Familiar

My Familiar

9 years. 7 moves. 2 states. More boyfriends than I care to count. This little girl had been by my side through the roughest years of my life.

There is no doubt that she was sent to me to help me get through them all. Zero doubt. Continue reading “My Familiar”

Here’s what I know to be true…

Here’s what I know to be true…

Here’s what I know to be true….

You’re never sent down a path you’re not meant to travel.

Even if said path is a total out of the blue left turn, if it’s where you’re feeling called to go, trust me when I say take that damn path! Because what you can’t see yet is where it’s taking you and more importantly, WHY.

That paths sole purpose may be meant to wipe the slate clean, rip the remaining layers back, strip you down into this creature that had been fighting to get out, and then circle you back to what your soul longed for all along. Continue reading “Here’s what I know to be true…”