Surrender

Surrender

Today was full. It was a lot. My brain feels a little mushy right now, to be honest, but I also feel extremely grateful.

I decided to hibernate this week. I decreased my social media use by 90%. I have turned my phone off most of the day each day. I pushed back my client calls and prerecorded my group trainings instead of hosting them live. Continue reading “Surrender”

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Be Proud of Your Body

Be Proud of Your Body

You’re allowed to be proud of your body.

In fact, you SHOULD be proud of your own body. Especially if it’s something you’ve had to fight to build.

You see, I’ve always been the skinny girl. Like unhealthily skinny. I wasn’t unhappy with the way I looked but I didn’t feel good…ever.

Yep, I was sick almost every day.

And the doctors told me that was just something I would have to deal with… along with an old knee injury that would flare up from time to time and a lower back injury that hurt me everyday.

Just something I would have to live with? I think not. Continue reading “Be Proud of Your Body”

My Stalker

My Stalker

“Because despite all the IG posts and feel good hashtags, you know you’re a fucking failure.”

That’s a line out of the the latest love letter from my stalker I received recently. This same woman has been creating fake accounts and email addresses for years to try and get to me.

It started years ago when I took a permanent stance as the woman on the arm of a “local celebrity” that she thought was supposed to be hers. From numerous letters in the mail, to texts from ghost numbers, to calls at my old place of employment telling me that she found my dog on the side of the highway, to over 20 fake social media accounts created in order to keep tabs on me, you name it… she’s done it.

When this email came through, I literally laughed out loud. Then instantly moved it into the folder labeled “stalkers” I have in my inbox that holds all of the hate mail I have received over the years. Continue reading “My Stalker”

My Business

My Business

It’s all work.
The photos.
The spray tans.
The journal sessions.
The private clients.
The meditations.
The sales meetings.
The group sessions.
The blog writing.
The team calls.
The project management.
The workouts.
The selfies.
The physic readings.
The financial planning.
The snapchats.
The accounting.
The live streams.
The budget planning.
The energy edits.
The product reviews.
The oils.
The relationships.
The DMs.
The hashtags.

You could define all of those things as “work” if you want to, because they are all in fact money generating activities in one way or another… in my world anyway.

They all drive me to be the best version of myself.
Continue reading “My Business”

My Battle

My Battle

Originally published June 28, 2018

“I just don’t feel good” —  I have never openly spoke about this in detail…not in true detail, so please bear with me as I try to get this out.

I realized this past weekend that no one really knows what that means when I briefly, nonchalantly mention it to people in passing, “I get sick”. And that is mainly because it is something I’ve spent most of my life being ridiculously embarrassed by.
Continue reading “My Battle”

Control What You Can Control

Control What You Can Control

Control what you can control.

One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned over the past few years was to stop letting shit that was out of my control upset me.

It’s not an easy switch to make but it’s one that will literally set you free.

You see, you can’t control other people’s actions so trying to will just leave you chasing your tail and frustrated…and probably super disappointed.

You also can’t control people’s reactions to what you do or what you say. But what you CAN control is your own reactions, your own actions. Continue reading “Control What You Can Control”

Leadership

Leadership

“You are such an amazing example of a fierce, gentle leader”.

I received that comment in a message the other day and I am so in love with that statement.

You see, a few years ago I made a massive commitment to myself that I would never be fake. That I would show up fully as myself every single day, in every single way no matter what. Even though it’s hard sometimes, I made the commitment and it’s one I take extremely seriously.

A lot of times I will meet someone “in real life” that I’ve connected with online and they will tell me how I’m the exact same in person as I am online and I just smile because that is my point! And it’s always great to get confirmation that I am in fact coming across as authentic because I’m truly just being me. Continue reading “Leadership”