Something I do every day like clock work is look at my history. The memories on Facebook are cool and I like to see them and be motivated by my own previous content but man, my history on Snapchat stories is where it’s at.
Recently a client brought up a thing that I had said a couple of years ago when I was making a large life choice that made everyone in my world VERY uncomfortable…. “I don’t owe anyone an explanation other than-‘Because I want to’“.
It took me back into the space I was in when I learned that lesson for the first time.
This girl had no idea what the “idea” she was toying with at that time could turn out to be.
Being whisked away to South Beach, staying in fancy hotels, having people wait on us at the beach, buying custom made hand-beaded dresses for fancy events, sitting poolside at one of the most expensive properties in Miami, eating amazing food every second possible.
I remember feeling like it was all surreal. Awesome, but surreal.
I’ve noticed that I tend to write things a few days later than most. I used to think that meant I wasn’t planning ahead enough or once I missed the “day” then it would be stupid to post about the holiday or event. (Big Reflection–Dive In with me below)
The truth is, I don’t write about them before because I haven’t experienced them yet. I don’t know how I’ll feel or how it will go until it’s actually happened.
Also, I’m pleased to realize that it’s also because I’m actually freaking present during holidays and events or hangouts so typing about it doesn’t even cross my mind. Not even the morning of or evening after usually either. And that is something I’m super grateful for.
So here it comes friends, my post about 2020. Continue reading “Reflections”
Unplug… I used to say “disconnect” but let’s be real… Disconnect? How NOT nourishing does that sound?!
The whole point of the act of turning everything off is to refill my cup, to rejuvenate, to reconnect with myself, my voice, my body, my soul. And how can you do that if you’re labeling the experience something so cold in the first place?
No wonder it was never working… And I had been trying the “disconnect” method for MONTHS with no change… So, disconnect went out the door and UNPLUG came in. Continue reading “Unplug”
The last few days I’ve been hit in so many different directions.
I rarely actually let things get my down for long because I can see the divine timing, I can see the reasons, I can feel that even though some things are hard or heavy, they will be okay. and just because one thing is heavy, doesn’t mean everything is heavy.
I think we forget that sometimes, that just because one thing isn’t going great or hurts you, that doesn’t mean everything else automatically sucks too. Continue reading “The Last Few Days”
“To be calm is the highest achievement of the self.” -Zen proverb
Lately I’ve spent more time in stillness. I’ve learned that on my journey to know myself on a different level, slow has become my preferred place to be.
Even when things are swift or moving quickly, I find myself standing in it all very differently than I have before. Continue reading “Stillness”
PUT THE SWORD DOWN.
Just because you know how to fight doesn’t mean you have to.
I’ve spent a lot of my life “fighting” to get to the next thing. Fighting to get recognition. Fighting to figure out what is wrong with my body. Fighting to get respect. Fighting to be seen. Fighting to be heard. Fighting to move out of and past old patterns and situations.
About a year ago, I stopped fighting.
I actually thought I had quit battling a long time before that point but in a moment where things had quite literally gone up in flames around me, I was reminded by a friend, “It’s only a battle if you choose for it to be” and in that moment I realized that while yes, I had stopped battling in most capacities, I still was in ways that I didn’t even notice.
So, I put the sword down and started to take another approach. After all, fighting or battling every day is fucking exhausting. Just saying those words brings my energy and vibe down several notches.
Here’s the thing, just because you know how to wield that sword and battle every demon or warrior that comes your way doesn’t mean you HAVE to. It doesn’t mean that has to be what defines you. It doesn’t mean you have to be in that state or operate with that as your desired position or stance to take.
Do you know where true power comes from?
It comes from KNOWING you can fight and then choosing not to because you can SEE past the moment and see the big picture where choosing not to fight is actually what accelerates everything.
It comes from choosing to stand within your own power and take the path of acceptance and learning to work WITH what’s happening, not against it. Continue reading “Put The Sword Down”