The Last Few Days

The Last Few Days

The last few days I’ve been hit in so many different directions.

I rarely actually let things get my down for long because I can see the divine timing, I can see the reasons, I can feel that even though some things are hard or heavy, they will be okay. and just because one thing is heavy, doesn’t mean everything is heavy.

I think we forget that sometimes, that just because one thing isn’t going great or hurts you, that doesn’t mean everything else automatically sucks too. Continue reading “The Last Few Days”

Stillness

Stillness

“To be calm is the highest achievement of the self.” -Zen proverb

Lately I’ve spent more time in stillness. I’ve learned that on my journey to know myself on a different level, slow has become my preferred place to be.

Even when things are swift or moving quickly, I find myself standing in it all very differently than I have before. Continue reading “Stillness”

Put The Sword Down

Put The Sword Down

PUT THE SWORD DOWN.

Just because you know how to fight doesn’t mean you have to.

I’ve spent a lot of my life “fighting” to get to the next thing. Fighting to get recognition. Fighting to figure out what is wrong with my body. Fighting to get respect. Fighting to be seen. Fighting to be heard. Fighting to move out of and past old patterns and situations.

About a year ago, I stopped fighting.

I actually thought I had quit battling a long time before that point but in a moment where things had quite literally gone up in flames around me, I was reminded by a friend, “It’s only a battle if you choose for it to be” and in that moment I realized that while yes, I had stopped battling in most capacities, I still was in ways that I didn’t even notice.

So, I put the sword down and started to take another approach. After all, fighting or battling every day is fucking exhausting. Just saying those words brings my energy and vibe down several notches.

Here’s the thing, just because you know how to wield that sword and battle every demon or warrior that comes your way doesn’t mean you HAVE to. It doesn’t mean that has to be what defines you. It doesn’t mean you have to be in that state or operate with that as your desired position or stance to take.

Do you know where true power comes from?
It comes from KNOWING you can fight and then choosing not to because you can SEE past the moment and see the big picture where choosing not to fight is actually what accelerates everything.
It comes from choosing to stand within your own power and take the path of acceptance and learning to work WITH what’s happening, not against it. Continue reading “Put The Sword Down”

2019 Lessons

2019 Lessons

Last year taught me that everything can change in a short period of time.

The day before 2019 started, I was unloading a truck of my stuff in a new state, into a new home, with a new family. Something that I always felt was way bigger than me, something I almost didn’t really have a say in deciding, I was just drawn to it in the most divine way… Continue reading “2019 Lessons”

75 Hard Challenge

75 Hard Challenge

I’ve contemplated doing this silently for a while. I’ve started it several times and barely made it a week without missing something on the list… but nobody knew so it was okay.

Bullshit.

I knew.

I knew that I missed a mark and started over day after day. At first, I was proud of myself for starting over and not beating myself up about it, but then I realized that was bullshit too. The fact is, I wasn’t committed. Which is I wasn’t following through. So I stopped re-starting but it’s still been on my mind. Like “when am I going to start again?” had been in the back of my thoughts ever since. Continue reading “75 Hard Challenge”

Finding Peace

Finding Peace

One of the hardest things to find peace with is knowing that someone you love is passing judgement on you based off false information or a version of you that you’ve evolved past years and years ago.

I seem to find this most with families, extended family to be exact. As much as I see this happen in my clients personal experiences, I see it happen in my own as well.

And it’s one of the saddest things and hardest to digest.

So many grudges held for so long, and for reasons most can’t even remember in the first place. Hard feelings based on assumptions or rumors or one comment that happened in 1995. Continue reading “Finding Peace”

Here’s what I know to be true…

Here’s what I know to be true…

Here’s what I know to be true….

You’re never sent down a path you’re not meant to travel.

Even if said path is a total out of the blue left turn, if it’s where you’re feeling called to go, trust me when I say take that damn path! Because what you can’t see yet is where it’s taking you and more importantly, WHY.

That paths sole purpose may be meant to wipe the slate clean, rip the remaining layers back, strip you down into this creature that had been fighting to get out, and then circle you back to what your soul longed for all along. Continue reading “Here’s what I know to be true…”