7 years ago I posted the picture on the left as my “goal” physique. I wanted to be strong. I wanted to have curves. I wanted to look that way AND feel healthy.
I had zero idea how to get there.
I would try the regularly suggested methods of eating and all the “fad” ways to get the booty and abs… guess what? None of that worked. And I would go through cycles of consistency, not feel better, not get stronger, and in turn would get discouraged and then give up. Continue reading “Real Change”
The heat kicks on in this house and it’s like you turned on a white noise machine. Chandler hates it because it means he has to turn up the TV to hear his shows, but I actually find it super comforting, especially in the morning before anyone else is awake. It’s like a barrier of sound that muffles everything just a little bit, just enough for me to refocus my thoughts when life gets a little too loud.
And guys, let me tell you life has been really damn loud lately. A lot has been happening that I couldn’t have planned for if I was Merlin himself but as I sit here this morning reflecting back on how life has been transpiring lately and looking to what this week has in store, I can honestly say that through it all, I’ve stayed surprisingly calm. Continue reading “Life Has Been Really Loud Lately”
I’ve been a little quiet lately, I know but sometimes when life is happening and it’s not just MY story to tell… as things transpire I have to keep it to myself. As I’ve been learning to mesh my life with that of another amazing human and an equally amazing kiddo and navigate it all so everyone is being served and everything is flowing, I’ve lost a little bit of my voice.
When I sit to write and reflect, the writing part hasn’t been happening as often. Simply because my brain needs the reflection and quiet time more now than it ever has before.
Talk about a whirlwind. The past couple of months have been just that. Insanely rewarding and my heart is so full but equally exhausting at the same time. And I miss my voice. I miss my platform and today, today the words started to flow for the first time in a long time and it felt GOOD.
It’s all slowly falling into place so I felt called to give ya’ll a little update and let you know I’m still here. Still building. Still creating. Still manifesting my reality. Still helping my clients. Still active in my groups.
I think maybe without really meaning to I’ve been silently preparing for what feels like a comeback… even though I haven’t fallen, not even a little bit.
Regardless, it’s about to go down… in the most magical and amazing way possible so stay tuned.
“You can have it all”. Really? Can you really though?
It’s funny, I’ve spent so much time intentionally building this world I live in but still question “Can I really have all of this?”
I mean, I look around at this beautiful home we’ve created, it’s so filled with love, I’m so filled with love and I think about having a strong, healthy body, beautiful skin, being in control of my thoughts and reactions, expanding my mind daily, writing brilliant pieces every day, having amazing relationships with my friends and family, kissing my soul mate before I go to bed every night… AND amazing mermaid hair… AND driving the vehicle of my dreams every day… AND on top of all of that, I get to make money by living on my terms every day and it doesn’t feel hard… WHO THE FUCK DO I THINK I AM TO HAVE ALL OF THIS?
And to want even MORE? Continue reading “You Can Have It All”
Remember who you are.
Without your age, the number on the scale, your report card, or your bank account.
Without the amount of friends you have, or expensive things you own.
Know who you are; your truest, most raw self.
When you start to doubt or worry, remember who you are at your core.
All of those other thoughts are in your head, fueled by your ego.
When you check in and get in touch with who you are at your core, you’re checking in with your heart center, with your gut, with your inner self.
And once you tune into that channel, make it a habit to do it frequently and stay in touch because that’s the purest part of your existence and the piece that will always lead you to your truest callings.
I went to catch up with a friend this morning, we met outside of the restaurant and I yelled my normal, “WHAT’S UPPPP!” greeting across the lot. As we were walking in, he replied “Well apparently EVERYTHING. You have a lot to tell me, huh?”
“Yep. All of the things are happening.”
“Like all of the things… at the same time.”
“Ya know, all of the things all in about 5 minutes. Yes. Quick and fast, just how I like it. You know I’m impatient.” I said jokingly.
And as we were seated to enjoy our usual, but massively overdue breakfast date, I went on to tell him about the huge realizations I’ve uncovered recently, the changes in my business structure, the fact that I met a man, fell in love basically instantly, and within days from now will be cohabitating with said man… in a different state.
Continue reading “Patience Has Nothing To Do With It”
It’s okay to let someone take care of you sometimes.
Seems almost silly to even say this out loud, but to all of you crazy independent heretics who are right there with me working daily to take over the world, it’s okay to let someone take care of you now and then.
For my entire adult life I’ve always worked hard to NEVER need anyone. Part of my insane proactive nature is to be super prepared and never need anyone to help me with anything…
This is something I’ve completely flipped and adjusted professionally… Hiring a staff and letting them be there for me is a must and something I’ve always been okay with. BUT in my personal life… Not so much.
I suck at letting anyone see me vulnerable.
Continue reading “Being Vulnerable”