Today was full. It was a lot. My brain feels a little mushy right now, to be honest, but I also feel extremely grateful.
I decided to hibernate this week. I decreased my social media use by 90%. I have turned my phone off most of the day each day. I pushed back my client calls and prerecorded my group trainings instead of hosting them live.
Why? Because I needed to knock out some things. I had a long list of items that needed to be finished up or addressed.
And I had been feeling like I was in maintenance mode every day. Handling that day’s tasks and that’s it, never leaving space or energy for my creativity to flow.
You guys, I NEED my creative side to be nurtured. It is what fuels me. It’s what lights me up.
But it can also be exhausting.
These past few days, it’s been exhausting.
But on the other side of the coin, I’m honestly happier than I’ve been in a long time.
Do you want to know why?
Because I surrendered.
Yep. I channeled my control freak side only into the avenues that serve me and allowed the rest of me to just surrender.
Meaning, I do my part every day and trust that the universe will deliver.
I make the space for the things I desire, make sure I’m open and ready to receive. Then I have faith that it will come when and how it’s supposed to.
The trick here is the “I DO MY PART” piece. I put in the works every single day. And I have been for a long fucking time, BUT I also always tried to push the hand of the universe at the same time and that my friends, is simply NOT how this works.
So, a few weeks ago, I relinquished control completely. Like completely.
I had been doing it in some areas, sometimes for about a year now but never at this depth and never totally across the board.
I’ll be speaking more about how this week has played out, what led up to it, and how I mixed being totally planned and prepared with the act of surrender in future posts… but for now, I want to leave you with this.
It’s your life.
You make the rules.
And when you truly allow that to be your reality, even when there are obstacles in your way or hard days you’ll sit down at the end of the day and feel so fucking fulfilled it’s not even funny.
I don’t really know else to describe it. Calm? Certainly? Joyous? Happy? Loved. Excited. High vibe? All of those mixed into one beaming emotion.
Either way, I hope you find your way to creating this for yourself (if you haven’t already). And stay tuned for more on the topic, the journey, and the steps taken to achieve this level of bliss… even in the route of pure creative exhaustion.
I honestly wouldn’t have it any other way and simply cannot wait to see what else is in store.