Intentional Living

Dear 2015,

Well, what can I say….you definitely were a raging bitch at times, but at others you were absolutely fabulous to me.

I will say that you consistently opened my eyes throughout the entire year.

I learned so much about myself, the people around me and my true purpose on this earth.

You tried my strength, pulled on my independence & pushed my sanity to its limits. In the moments that you were such a bitch, you forced me to be resilient. You forced me to make a decision and run with it.

You also restored my faith in humanity this year. Opened my eyes to the amazing people out there who are open to living their best life, and introduced me to those who want to live their best life, but just need a little guidance.. which in turn led me to my newest business venture. Its hard to call it that though, It’s not work to me. Its my mission, the reason I am here. I get to help people every single day, be creative and make a difference. And for that I am truly grateful.

Lets recap a little…

In February I made a decision to move.. To leave the house of a man that I love, to go in search of the life that I NEEDED. Talk about frightening… BUT with the help of a few unsung heros I was able to find the perfect place for me and my four legged children and I couldn’t be more happy here. My relationship with myself and the people I love have had nothing but positive changes from this move.

Then a funny thing happened… in April, I parted ways with my job. The job I dedicated my everything to for almost 6 years. The place I thought I would always be safe in. Welp, guess again. My eyes were opened to the reality that this world is filled with un-explainable things and with terrifyingly horrible people.

-I learned that I was even stronger than I thought. And this turn of events allowed me to pursue my own venture.
-I gained compassion for those who deliberately hurt me in this situation, forgave them for their hurtful activities and removed the toxic from my life once and for all.
-I accepted this as an opportunity to truly make the life that I wanted, the life that I dreamed of.

And I can honestly say that I forgot what it was like to be this happy, this content and this excited about every single day I wake up to.

Oh 2015, you and the universe conspired good on this one… the two previous chain of events allowed me to available to help my family out in ways I never would have been able to before. Because you see, my grandmother had passed away the end of 2014 and dealing with her estate was a very hard task for my family, to say the least.
The situation I had currently found myself in allowed me to help them, to be there for my Dad when he needed it the most, to sit at Grandmas and wait for inspectors and appointments, to help clean things and organize. Living closer again and having the freedom of making my own schedule allowed that. I am so thankful that I was able to be there for them.

The remainder of the year I spent learning and growing. I rediscovered my love for learning. The amount of research and building I have done over the past few months is invigorating. Learning new things about life, love, soul and myself has not only made me a better person, but allowed me to be more helpful to those put in my path.

I will say that discovering your true purpose is an un-describable feeling. It’s almost like watching the most beautiful fireworks display you’ve ever seen, mixed with eating all of your favorite foods, mixed with surrounding yourself with every person you love, mixed with driving down a back road on a sunny day with the windows down and the music up.. all at the same time. That ALMOST describes the feeling.

I watched some people I love dearly suffer this year as well. And I’m thankful I was able to be there by their sides to help them through their own unique situations. The strength that a person can accomplish when they need too, ceases to amaze me.

All in all, I would say that 2015 was a year of discovery for me.

Discovery that was a total surprise.
Discovery that has been trying.
Discovery that has been invigorating.
Discovery that has been terrifying.
Discovery that has been utterly exciting.

Discovery that has lead me to this point. To the point where I am beyond trilled to start this new year.

2016 will be the year of empowerment and conquering for me…

And I can not freaking wait!!! 🙂