Intention

Intention

10 hours in the car, lots to unpack and put away before jumping into a little work before I can finally go to bed after what feels like the longest day ever.

I knew I barely had anything in the fridge because I was gone for 10 days so I cleaned it out before I left. I also knew I wouldn’t want to go to the grocery store tonight… so I could have just eaten something out of the freezer or some ramen or went through a drive thru but instead I planned ahead.
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Gathering Bones

Gathering Bones

I went into my trip feeling cloudy and physically weak, exhausted and almost numb mentally.

It was like I had been doing what needed to be done every day, I was connecting with my clients and helping them grow but I was just standing there. Over Analyzing everything in my space. Not really sure anymore where I needed or wanted to go from here.

I cried the morning I left. I felt sick. I was scared. and I cried at my kitchen table. And then again in the Jeep as I was gassing up. And crying isn’t something I do very often…ya know, because I’m super tough. Rawr.
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I’m Not The Standard

I’m Not The Standard

Nothing I do makes sense, well I mean it doesn’t “mesh” or fit according to the standard “what makes a woman great” memo that the world has been handed. I tend to leave people scratching their heads, unsure what I just said or did. Unable to truly understand the methods to my madness until much later after they’ve allowed it to process, then it “sort of” makes sense. But even then, I’m a walking contradiction.
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Nauseous

Nauseous

Real talk: I’m nauseous constantly.

I wake up nauseous and have to literally talk myself out of puking every morning. Thank God I’m as mentally strong as I am. Until about a year ago I DID actually puke every morning because I woke up with my blood sugar so out of wack. I have made major improvements in my quality of life over the past couple of years by systems of trial and error and figuring out what makes me feel the best.
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THE MOUNTAINS ARE CALLING

THE MOUNTAINS ARE CALLING

I am truly grateful for this life. For the ups and downs. For the joy and confusion. For the light and the dark. For the lessons and the struggles. For the highest of highs and for the lowest of lows.

When the fog sets in, I don’t get mad. I look around. I look within. I look deep. It forces you to have to look harder to see what is really going on. The fog is a sign that you need to look harder. That maybe you need to stand in that same spot for a bit in order to truly absorb what you’re meant to.
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You Don’t Know What It’s Like

You Don’t Know What It’s Like

“But Jamie, you don’t know what it’s like!”

Really? I don’t know what it’s like to be broke and not have enough money to pay rent, let alone figure out if I had enough gas to get me to work until payday? Yes. I know that reality all too well. So, quit being so damn assuming and remember that we all start somewhere and you my friend, are not the only one who knows what it means to struggle. Continue reading “You Don’t Know What It’s Like”

My Fitness Journey

My Fitness Journey

My 2018 starting point is a body I barely recognize most of the time. Something I never thought was possible for me.

Figuring what makes my body run at peak performance and allows me to FEEL good has been such an interesting discovery ride.

This past year I have discovered which foods maintain a stable blood sugar for me, I started eating a high fat macro based diet, fell in love with building my shoulders, back, and arms, and now squat 175lbs on a regular basis.

I’ve added over 2 inches of size on my thighs and glutes, and over 1 inch on my biceps. I’ve gained 8 lbs in muscle and am down to 19% body fat. Solid fucking growth for someone who always struggled to maintain 118 lbs for most of her life, if you ask me.

But have I been 100% on my diet and workouts? Nope.

I’d say I was about 75% on my diet and 90% on my training. Looking back at the past 365 days and seeing the progress I’ve made and the strength and mass I’ve created I can’t help but ask myself, “where would I be if I stayed 100% disciplined?” Well, we’re going to find out.

I’m not going to drop my goals here in a “new year” post for you, you’ll see my results as I keep putting in the work and turn up the heat on it all.

Stay tuned. It’s just getting better from here.

I also wanted to note that I share much more of my fitness journey over on my Instagram so follow me there if you want to see more regular updates.

P.s. My fitness journey started two years ago. I’ve been diligent about figuring out what works for me in diet and training for two years. That is 730 days of choosing every day to focus on this mission. Thats 730 of choosing this lifestyle. So before you say “oh, I couldn’t look like that” ask yourself how many days you’ve been consistently committed to it?

You CAN build the change, you just have to do the work every day.